And then there were three...: Here it is!

I have been trying to get back here for the past week or so however long since I wrote last and just haven't found the right time. I've spent so much time looking at other peoples blogs getting inspired by their creativity and so enjoy peeking into other people lives. I started this blog so I could keep a journal of such of my time with my three boys or at the time of starting the blog it was two boys with a new bub coming unknown what he would be at the time. I do wish I would have kept up with writing my blog during that time of me being pregnant and then the arrival of Lucas but I just struggled with keeping up with Jack and Will while pregnant and everything else. I didn't feel inspired to keep going with it but I think it's important for me to have a voice somewhere even if its for just myself to read back on to see the journey I have taken and all the wonderful things that have happened with our three boys.

Our beautiful baby Lucas arrives into the world!

Anyway there really is just too much I feel to go back through all that's happened since having Lucas 4 1/2 months ago. For me it was really no surprise he was a boy. I really did feel it pretty much the whole pregnancy but as with everyone there is always that chance it's a girl too. I really did enjoy looking at all the girl things scouring the net looking at things I might like if it were to be a girl but it wasn't to be. I believe everything happens as it's supposed to and I believe I was blessed with three gorgeous boys for a reason. They are here to teach me something and hopefully me them. Some days it is so full on for me and I wonder how I manage to get through the day and my patience is very thin. There are other days however that are just filled with love from my boys and their laughter and sense of fun and I feel truly blessed to have them. As hard as it is sometimes it is all worth it and as they grow together I can only hope they will be the best of friends and have great memories of growing up together. Ben and I love them so much and everything we do we only want what is best for them. Sometimes our own destructive behaviours get in the way of this and it's a constant battle for both of us to move past them so we can be the best parents that we want to be but we truly love our kids so much.

Jack and Will meeting their new baby brother Lucas for the first time.

So all that said my blog from now will just be week to week happenings with the boys again talking about funny things they've said and done and how they're interacting with each other. I think I'm also going to start putting things up on here that I find inspirational or just things I plain love because there are so many things I'm always adding to my dream home one day.

Speaking of inspirational look at this gorgeous cubby house from a blog that I love Bubby Makes Three. I can not wait to one day own our own home again so we can put one of these in our backyard for our little guys.

As I write this Jack and Will are asleep in their bedroom together which makes me so happy that they're able to do that. I look back and have such fond memories of sharing a room with my sister Kim. I really think it has made us even closer. Even if we had enough rooms for them to have their own I think I'd still want them all to share at some point. I think it's good for them. Lucas is still sleeping in the room with us which I like. I prefer them at that age to be close to me. He is such a beautiful happy baby I couldn't ask for him to be better truly. He is only just starting to learn to cry if he wants something. He has made this transition to having the three so much easier. I dread to think how much harder it would have been had he been a difficult baby. God must have known I couldn't handle it I think. anyway he is such a delight we are very lucky. He is also definitely going to be treated like the baby. He is so endearing. We all just love him to bits. Even the boys who only give him a whack now and again. Mostly though they love him and I know they're happy to have another brother. Jack and Will seemed to get closer when he came along and for me it felt right when Lucas came into our world. I just always felt three was the right number and now I know it was. I really don't think we will have anymore but I guess never say never as I don't know how I'll feel when Lucas is older but I do know it definitely wouldn't be close like the three of them are. If we had lots of money too that would make the decision easier but it's something that needs to be considered. I think we have our hands pretty full though with the three boys and I don't feel I'm missing out not having the girl. Obviously it would be nice but it's not meant to be. At least the boys can all go camping together when they're older and leave me with some peace and quiet.